i have no plan and it’s driving me crazy. I’ve had thousands of ideas and not a single one has been completed. I don’t know what will happen to me in 5-10 years, I can’t even imagine. I’m from russia. I don’t have any skills or education that would help me leave this country, or at least to protect myself and my loved ones as much as possible. Аnd given where everything is going, I feel like I should start doing something as soon as possible, but I’m just sitting there because I don’t know what. I cry every day, it’s so exhausting.
Well I dreamed of becoming a concept artist and working in the international market. I honed my skills for about four years, and when I finally got my first commission, the war broke out, money transfers between countries were suspended, and that was it. Then the AI boom began, and I fell into a long-term depression and made the difficult decision to give up on that dream. Then I started studying web design, but I was scared by many people’s opinions that it would be useless due to high competition and the development of AI. Then I started studying backend development. I tried, then gave up, then came back and gave up again. The same thing happened with data analysis, accounting, and many other things. I just don’t like it, and I can’t help myself. But these fields seem like the only way to get out of poverty and perhaps move to another country. I think I’m burnt out. Perhaps I’m weak or lazy. I’m very unlucky with my brain.
Honestly with the pandemic + war + AI crap you were born at a very unfortunate time. You’re not crazy for feeling like this trust me. Getting out seems really difficult, places like Georgia, Kazakhstan, etc are making it harder for Russians than it used to be…